Woke up with you on my mind this morning. All I could think about was talking to you and being close to you. I needed you to hold me and let me know that everything would be alright like you always do. Wanted to tell you what had been on my mind and my heart, and to see what you had to say. You are #1 in my life and you hold a very special place in my heart and my soul. I don't know where I would be without you (yes I do know, dead, out of my mind, or just plain no where). Thank you for loving me when I didn't know how to love myself or even how to love you. I will always be forever grateful for you. And thanks for all the times when I thought I was alone for being there even if I didn't acknowledge you. I love you Lord!
Your Virtuous Princess
Sometimes I wonder what's really going on, right now I feel so lost and overwhelmed and know that if God doesn't fix my situation nobody can. I have been having one trial after the other and have felt very weary and tired but I know that everything happens for a reason. I also know that there is a very strong calling on my life and that God is calling me to a new place of praise, worship, prayer, and to sum it up a new place in Him. Just wondering why I just won't do it, why I continue to allow other things to keep me distracted when I know the answer is in Him. But even though I believe and trust in Him I find myself questioning the circumstances and situations because I don't want to assume anything or take the wrong path, let alone miss any part of the lesson I need in order to help me and someone else.
It's funny how you think you have passed a test but then it continues to come up, so have I really passed? It's time for something different and something more than where I am and the results I keep getting; this is not the life God intended for me. But how do I get to this abundant life I hear so much about and have experienced in some areas of my life? Keep my eyes on God, my heart and mind on Him be willing for Him to change me and mold me no matter what the process is because the outcome will be good and put me one step closer to where he needs me to be and doing what He has called me to do. Everything bad that continues to happen always works out for my good and for God's glory. It's not easy and I don't like the process but it just continues to build my faith, my trust and my dependency on Him, God please help me because I need help!